I can't talk to my famiy about this. I just get angry. I know im just being bitchy and not making it any easier but i can't help it.

Is that horrible of me?

I am staying at M's tonight, and seeing KK tomorrow. He has to get better. He has to make it through this. Because if he doesn't, everything will fall apart.

I don't mean to get all depressed teenager on you, because that was so last year. I am better now. and I need to stay better.