Today was one of the most wonderful days in my life. But it's got me wondering...

Do you remember how when you were little you never thought you ould grow up? When it seemed like it would be forever before you were an adult or driving or going to college or even high school.

Even just a few years ago i still felt like that. Now everything is going by so fast. I've only got 3 more years of high school left until im leaving all my friends to become a real person. an independant person who makes their own decisions and doesnt have parents or teachers hovering over them telling them what to do anymore. In just one year some of my best friends are leaving, people who changed my life and myself forever. people who shaped who i will be when i am going off to college in a few years or starting my career or even a family some day.

Now i'm starting to wonder if the promises we've made will last for more than a few years. Right now my biggest fear is losing touch will all the people who i love so much. People who helped me through the toughest parts of my life. People who helped me realize who i am, and learn to love who i am.

Right now i have a feeling of certainty. A feeling that no matter what i will always have people that i can lean on, when i need to. people who always know what to say. A feeling that i will always be confident with who i am. Right now i am on top of the world.

But what about in a few years? What happens then? What happens when i am thrown into the real world with no one by my side? Whats going to happen then? The reason i am so self confident is because i have people here who give me a reason to feel that way. i have people who make me feel good about myself even when that's the farthest thing from my mind. What am i going to do when these people are gone?

I know I've still got a few years, but...

I'm scared.