Something has been bothering me for about a week now, and i couldn't tell what it was until now. I kind of feel like i am beeing taken for granted. And i'm not saying or implying in any way that i should be cherished or honored or anything of that sort...just appreciated i guess. i guess i just need reassurrance every now and then. I guess most of this is coming from my family, but i just get uncertain sometimes.

I feel like a arrogant selfish bitch about this post. sorry. there are so many other things i could be talking about, but i can't sort any of it out. So i am whining at you.

I'm also feeling pretty good though. just at peace with my surroundings. it was hailing today, and it was beautiful. I put some hail in a cup and put it in my freezer to keep, because i thought it was special. How often does it hail in the middle of May?

i've been thinking about summer a lot(24/7) recently...and the only picture that comes to mind is a sunflower. Or sunflowers. It's pleasant. It's getting me through the days. :)