here it is--updated

there's more at the end!

because it sounded like a good idea. thanks li. i know it's really freakin long, but rad it all...it'll do you good.

The List

i want:

rain
sun
the moon to be so big i can almost touch it
someone to not be able to tear their eyes away from me
love at first sight
flowers and candy
doors opened
a big pretty dress
to be a ballerina
to be longed for
to be looked to for guidance
to live like every day is my last.
to not have to think about what i say before i say it
to be friends with my mom
to be neat and tidy
to be dainty
a closet full of nothing but skirts and dresses and pretty girly tops
to be able to wear my sparkly fishnets out of the house and not look like a prostitute
and asian boyfriend
a jewish boyfriend
a russian boyfriend
to live in california
and newyork
to go to six flags
a tattoo of a treble cleff on my foot, or neck
a belly flat enough that i can get my belly button peirced and show it off
arched feet
longer fingernails
to be able to write poetry
and songs
and stories
to make music
to teach high school choir
to perform
to act
to be the best at something
to laugh so hard my abs are sore the next day
to be known by who i am, not who i hang out with or what i do
to be a good conversationalist
to open up a coffee shop with lots of old comfy furniture and song lyrics on the walls and always live music
to learn italian and spend a summer there
to be listened to
my opinion to matter to someone
someone to not be able to stop thinking about me
to love and be loved in return (i had to steal it, li)
a kitten
a puppy
to be able to make my own clothes
to drive
to be my own person
to be free
to go away
to be missed
to be wanted
and be kissed:
in the starlight
and in the rain
and snow
in a feild if flowers
on a bridge
under a street lamp
when i am sad
when i am happy
a kiss to solve an argument
someone to play with my hair
someone to want to know everything about me
someone to want nothing but me for the rest of their lives
to adopt a child
to have a child
to be like my mother on a good day
someone's face to light up when they see me
to break someone's heart
ice cream
popcorn
to have a picnic
to live in the city
to go to the city
to live in an apartment complex that has a garden on the roof
to have sex in said garden
to not care what people think of me
to have my dreams come true
to live in the 20's
to go swing dancing
to be the most interesting and entertaining old woman i can possible be
to spoil my grandchildren
for people to think i am "free spirited" and not weird
will power
to want to excercise every day
to be a dancer
boys to be easier to read
people to say what they feel
someone who i've never met to tell me they love me
to live by a beach
to have dinner parties
to live on my own
to have a pair of high heels in every color
go go boots
a reason to wear go go boots
to not have to have a reason to wear go go boots
to wear leg warmers
to look good in hats
curly hair
perfect skin
for people to notice when i paint my nails red
a littl black dress
a little red dress
everything i own to fit me perfectly
to have the confidence to strike up a conversation with someone i don't know
to have someone i dont know strike up a conversation with me
to go to japan, greece, england, progue, france, italy, and brazil
to have someone think i am the most beautiful being on earth

i could go on forever...and i think i will.
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To fall asleep with someone
To go clubbing
To be a stripper for a day
A $10,000 shopping spree
To go to the beach
Someone to think I am perfect in every way
To get married when I am twenty-seven
To have a kid when I am 30
To be a lead in a show next year
To be the best
To feel pretty every day
To be a morning person and a night person
My parents to own a target so I can get whatever I want from there all the time
People to stop wearing jeans so low their crack shows all the fucking time
To be accepted for who I am
A second chance
To get married once
To find the cord that hooks my camera up to my computer
A blue lobster
Perfect feet
To dance in the middle of the road
To sing in the shower and not worry about who hears me
To lose 10 lbs.
To be able to draw
To be able to paint
To see snakes on a plane
To learn to surf
To find a book I can get into
To go shopping with jamie fruits
Jamie Fruits to have babies
To always smell like fabric softener
Red Character shoes
Elijah wood
Johnny Depp
To go to a book store
To learn more about other religions, including my own
To get mail
My pirates dvd


there it is. you will have learned a lot about me from that list. now you make one.