it's great. really.

i come to the realization, that there are a lot of people who i thought would back me up, that i guess just don't believe in me.

it's great.
thanks guys.
good to know my friends support me.

i wish i could just walk in and say
"please, just give me a chance. i know i need work but i promise i won't let you down if you just give me an opportunity to show you that i can do it."

but i can't do that.

i'm sick and thusly over emotional.