i think i'm stuck. i'm sure i've been here for a long while.
and i'm not sure how to get away.

And now you think, "Again with the lists! God damnit Cavya, i'll shoot your ass in the foot."
Deal with it.

I am...
-a selfish person. (hence all the blog posts that are about nothing but me.)
-a horrible person. (really, i am)
-trying to figure out why i keep holding on to things i know will hurt me.
-a person with a lot of weird habbits
--touching curling irons when they are hot
--biting people
--making weird faces at everyone i know all the time
--subconciously buttoning/unbuttoning shirts (sometimes even on other people)
-trying to be a better person
-a procrastinator--to the point where i can almost never get anything done on time
-too strong for my own good.
-not able to cry in movies
-completely confused as to what the hell i am going to do with my life.
-almost never sad when i am around my friends
-almost always sad when i am not around them
-apathetic towards things i should not be, because it's just not a surprise anymore
-surprised that i miss him
-not sure if he'll get better
-not sure if he wants to get better
-not sure that he can get better
-afraid to trust him (and very few others)
-an extremely jealous person
-a party
-waiting to be married
-waiting for someone who can be what i need
-going to make running a habbit.
-going to follow through with the promises i make to myself
-the person who can't help the way they are, or how they feel. i just am.

"...And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away"