And now you think, "Again with the lists! God damnit Cavya, i'll shoot your ass in the foot."
Deal with it.

I am...
-a selfish person. (hence all the blog posts that are about nothing but me.)
-a horrible person. (really, i am)
-trying to figure out why i keep holding on to things i know will hurt me.
-a person with a lot of weird habbits
--touching curling irons when they are hot
--biting people
--making weird faces at everyone i know all the time
--subconciously buttoning/unbuttoning shirts (sometimes even on other people)
-trying to be a better person
-a procrastinator--to the point where i can almost never get anything done on time
-too strong for my own good.
-not able to cry in movies
-completely confused as to what the hell i am going to do with my life.
-almost never sad when i am around my friends
-almost always sad when i am not around them
-apathetic towards things i should not be, because it's just not a surprise anymore
-surprised that i miss him
-not sure if he'll get better
-not sure if he wants to get better
-not sure that he can get better
-afraid to trust him (and very few others)
-an extremely jealous person
-a party
-waiting to be married
-waiting for someone who can be what i need
-going to make running a habbit.
-going to follow through with the promises i make to myself
-the person who can't help the way they are, or how they feel. i just am.